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I’m running! Wait…no…false alarm.

So I've got this pain in my left knee.

It's not super intense. I'm not crying out in pain, and I can still walk on it.

It's funny because, when I started running again a couple weeks ago, I was worried about my left leg. I'd had numbness issues before, but I figured I'd try and work through it. Listen to my body, but keep trying and see if regular, gentle running helped. And it did! The numbness disappeared entirely, replaced by the wonderful, burning achiness of running, where your legs hurt just enough afterwards that you know you've done well.

But last week I started to feel a different pain in my left leg. It had moved up a bit, into the knee. Nothing crazy, but I took a day off, felt better (except for the energy crash that comes from not running in the morning) and tried again; I got through the run, but paid for it the next day, and have been resting my legs since.

It's more than a little frustrating. Just when I think I've found the motivation to work exercise back into my life, when I find something I can enjoy, I get sidelined. I know, from how it feels today, I need to rest the leg for a while. We have a long weekend coming up, so I'll likely spend a lot of that resting. As much as I am somewhat looking forward to that, this means I have to be extra careful with the calories if I want to keep the modest gains I've made. Down 4 pounds, last time I checked. Not much, but a start.

I guess this is a good lesson in knowing your limits, though, and maybe that the idea of setting huge goals for yourself is not the best plan when dealing with exercise and injury.


Wine and Love: 9

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!


    • I feel like whenever I get ahead in one aspect of my life, others fall to the wayside. I'm exercising and eating better, but now I don't seem to have time to read blogs or watch videos, or blog myself!
    • While I'm excited about moving out in a few weeks, I am a little nervous. Lots of stuff to deal with. I've lived on my own before, but never while working full time. I know it will be good for me to learn, but I'm still worried I'll leave the stove on or the door unlocked or wake up and realize I have no clean clothes or something of the sort.
    • It's hot! Although not terrible, still a little unpleasant. Though I am grateful most places I'm in have AC.



  • I have been running pretty regularly most weekday mornings. Not far, and not long, and with lots of stops for walking, but still. I've coupled this with calorie counting. It's amazing, when I realize how much latitude I gave myself and just how much I was eating. I do miss that, being able to eat whatever I want, but it wasn't healthy. I'm down around 4 pounds already since last week, which is excellent.
  • I'm excited about moving to the city for a little while. I'm still a little iffy about the idea of living there permanently, but this will be a good test of that. I'm looking forward to cooking for myself more and having more control over that.
  • Podcasts. I've been listening to some at work while doing some data entry work and, not only has it improved my productivity, but the time seems to just fly by, and I feel like I'm getting something done both work and personal-wise. Lately it's been Comedy Bang Bang and the Nerdist, but I'm open to other recommendations.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?


Wine and Love: 3

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!


  • Didn't get a job I interviewed for. Spent almost a whole day in interviews too. While it was a good experience overall, and looking back it may not have been the best fit, I still can't say I was too pleased to get that news.
  • I'm slowly getting sick. Every morning I can feel my throat aching a little more, and I'm just waiting for it to blossom into a full blown cold. Definitely need to sleep much this weekend.
  • Eaten poorly the last while. Given in to stress/emotional eating a few too many times.


  • I'm feeling a renewed passion for blogging and vlogging. Been reading and watching more and feeling excited, with some new ideas of things to do and maybe some new projects coming up. GFM's been writing some drabbles lately, which has got me thinking about trying my hand at some creative writing as well.
  • I've been trying to walk a bit. I'm aiming for just a short, 10 minute walk every day, just to get moving a little bit. I've also been trying to keep off my phone, mostly, and do a bit of walking meditation. It's nice because it's very hard to say "nah, I don't have time for that." Cause I totally do. Though the weather lately has been the biggest deterrent. But it's been nice.
  • I'm getting a handle on things at work. Saying that may be the kiss of death, of course, but I'm getting there, for now.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?


Exercising, Socialization, Skype and You

I'm supposed to go to CrossFit again tonight. Well, I say supposed to like someone else made the decision. I did.

It's been a week and a half since I first went. I didn't go back after due to a friend coming into town and then getting sick.

Then I started realizing how easily I could start cutting down calories and started thinking about life and how I want to make sure I'm spending time with the people I love, doing things I love.

Then I started talking to friends (including the current object of my affection) more on Skype and other voice chat systems.

And I know it's good for me. I know it won't be as bad as I fear, I know I'll have more fun than I think I will, and I know it won't even take as long as I fear. But I don't wanna. I don't want to leave this warm bubble of friends, of worlds I know. I don't want to dive into this cold and, honestly, seemingly unfriendly world of a gym.

I know it will be good for me. And I know I'll be glad I did it.

My nose is also sniffling today, heralding a resurgence of a cold. Experience tells me if I go and exercise I may exacerbate things, which worries me somewhat, but that's more of an excuse than anything else. And I know I can't go tomorrow, due to a get-together with a friend. And I won't wanna go on Wednesday any more than today. But I may be sniffling less.

I've been worried lately about stress, and I know that this exercise would, in the long run, help me relieve stress. But there's nothing I'd like more than to not have to face that room of people I don't know, to not have to find the trainer and ask for help, and to just say "hey, I'll lose weight through diet change," and never go again.

But I will go back. If not today, then Wednesday. If not Wednesday, than next week. If not next week, than the week after. In fact, I just messaged my friend who went there, to give me some support.

It's okay to not want to do something, for some things to be hard, for some things to be forced. It's about identifying how to make them less hard.


(that's what she said?)