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31May/121

Wine and Love: 8

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!

Wine

  • Still behind on blogs and vlogs. Have fallen behind on podcasts too. Bah! And very little blogging! I can't say why exactly. I'm in a little bit of a funk lately. Nothing huge, but just feeling a little down on myself, and mostly when I get home I just wanna escape, into WoW or my book. Blogs, vlogs and even podcasts, to a point, are about being social.
  • I'm hungry all the time these days, and my weight seems stalled. Both of these things worry me a bit, and I feel a little lost as how to proceed, outside of straight up willpower and saying "No, I ate a full lunch and breakfast, I do not need a snack, I am not really hungry." Maybe try and get some fruit in the office.

Love

  • Technology. I've been reading more on my Kobo and loving it. Finally found a good book that I am plowing through, the Wise Man's Fear. Really liking it so far, I'm almost halfway done.
  • I've decided to do the July move to Toronto for a month, and I am excited. Nervous, but excited.
  • I may have just signed up to do Blog Every Day in June. I'm not sure on it yet. Not sure what I'd talk about, but...well, it starts tomorrow, so we'll see! I do have some ideas for another sort of weekly post, but I haven't gotten it all organized yet.
  • Finally got a bit caught up at work. There's still more to do (there's always more to do) but we cleared a good chunk of stuff.
  • As much as I'm in a bit of a funk, I feel like I've finally nailed down some sources of these sorts of funks, and like I'm getting to the root of them. Which may be part of the funk, working through some things. Bah, I don't mean to sound so cryptic, I'm mostly talking about confidence issues, and looking at a bit of a two pronged approach to dealing with them. I'll approach from the outside, by changing my living situation and giving myself one less thing to be down on myself about, and working internally to stop the bad self-talk. If anyone else talked to me the way I talked to myself, I'd deck them where they stood. So why do I let myself talk that way?
  • I feel like I'm getting a handle on the kind of habits and practices I'd like to have in my daily life. Sadly, ideally, most of them involve getting up hella early, or sacrificing my evenings to things that...I don't generally wanna do in the evenings. Work in progress, but progress.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?

24May/120

Wine and Love: 7

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!

Wine

  • Got back from vacation to a giant pile of work. Nothing unmanageable, but a lot to deal with. I'm working my way through it, but I'm worried about other things falling through the cracks, so it's a bit stressful. Nothing insane though, just overall busy.
  • I didn't get as much done over the long weekend as I would have liked. I did clean a lot, organized a fair bit and threw out some old junk (and put aside some to be donated). But still not quite all I'd have liked to do.
  • Haven't been keeping up on YouTube, blogs or podcasts as much as I'd like. I've been busy enough that I get home and just wanna veg. But, I am anticipating more time to do all these things with the TV seasons winding down. Totes Awesome is my new How I Met Your Mother. Vodka Girls is my new Parks and Rec. Now y'all need to come up with exciting and hilarious plot lines! ;)

Love

  • It's beautiful out these days. A bit too hot for my tastes, but the weather here has been gorgeous.
  • I had an interesting proposal from a friend of mine who lives in the city. He's going to be away for most of July, and asked if I would house sit his apartment, saying I could stay there for the month if I wanted. This is incredibly generous of him, first off, and I feel more than a little honoured he asked me. And I'm tempted to just jump at it and say yes. Although I've been a little dissuaded from living in the city lately, living a lot closer to work and many friends, particularly in the middle of the summer, could be a lot of fun. I'd get to cook for myself, relax in my own space and likely be able to sleep a little later too. But, my parents are also traditionally away in July, meaning my cat would be all alone (and I can't bring her with me to this apartment; she'd shed everywhere, not to mention the litterbox, plus the fact that it's a bachelor and she would be all over me at night). I'm sure we could get someone to come in and care for her, and I'd be able to pop in a bit, but she is a very people-oriented cat, and this worries me a bit. There's also the fact that, since I've pretty well settled on finding a place in the suburbs, and doing this would mean leaving my car at my parents' place for the month, I'd have to put off finding a new place for a bit. Just for a month, but I was planning on getting the search started in the next few weeks, and this would mean stopping it mid-search, or delaying it to August. Or just making do with it being a bit of a longer commute to see places. Not a huge road block, but not ideal. I guess I could probably make it work, searching and all, but it would be a lot more difficult, going back and forth. I'm still debating on it, but it looks like it could be a lot of fun.
  • I have had the house to myself for a few days, which has been nice. In ways almost a little too quiet, but definitely nice.
  • Coffee. I'm loving coffee this week. As with every week. But this week especially. I've been making the time to make good coffee, instead of the instant Keurig stuff, and it definitely makes a difference.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?

17May/121

Wine and Love: 6

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!

Wine

  • There are lots of little annoyances I could post about, but they're all very minor things and, honestly, not worth whinging about. Lots of folks out there with things much worse than I have. Work continues to be busy, and we saw a spike of business this week that's been relatively unparalleled, but still nothing too crazy.

Love

  • My parents got the new car! I've driven it a few times and it's fun. What I find odd is my Dad hasn't yet, even just to take it out. This baffles me. Same as when my roommate got a new computer shipped, then walked away from it to go have lunch. I was like "OMG NEW TOY HOW ARE YOU NOT PLAYING WITH IT?!" Though this is weirder. He hasn't even taken it out for a ride around the block! Just baffles me, but it's still fun.
  • I'm taking two vac days, so today is my Friday, and with the long weekend I'll have 5 days off in total. I'm not doing anything particularly special, but my parents were supposed to both be gone from Friday on, so the idea was to kind of enjoy some time to myself. However, my Dad's plans changed and for a while he wasn't going away at all, but now he's off on Sunday, so I'll still get three days to myself, which will be nice. I plan to see the Avengers tomorrow and do some serious cooking, cleaning, sleeping, reading, WoWing and whatever else comes to mind. Oh, and hang out with the cat a lot.
  • Had a great professional development session last night. I attend monthly meetings of my local chapter of the HR Professionals Association, where they usually have dinner and a speaker. The chapter has some fun, pleasant, smart people, though it can be a tad boring sometimes. Last night the speaker was pretty dynamic, and was talking about how to facilitate and bring about change in an organization, but a lot of it can be applied personally. Call me a chump, but I left kind of inspired and excited. Kinda sad the meetings end now, though, and don't start up again til September. Only a little bit though. The place they hold them is annoying to drive to.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?

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10May/122

Wine and Love: 5

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!

Wine

  • Some friends are having a rough time, and I just don't know what to say to them to help. I want to help, but it always just seems to come out wrong, and I end up just saying "I'm sorry" a lot. I also have to resist the urge to try and fix things, and just listen, but it's tough, because I really don't know what else to say. I hope folks know that I'm there for them if they need a shoulder to cry on, and that I care about them. I just wish I was better at that sort of thing. Any suggestions, folks? I try to let them know I'm here for them, but it just doesn't seem to be enough to me.

Love

  • My parents are getting a new car, which is fun. A Dodge Journey. I'm excited to test drive it a bit.
  • I have officially paid off all the things, and can start putting money aside for the move again. I may have said this before, but then I realized I had missed a couple things, so now, they're done. I was poking around on real estate websites today, and there isn't a lot that's in my price range that is also the sort of thing I want, but there are some out there.
  • I levelled my druid to 80! This may make no sense to many of you, but it was fun for me!
  • I've been listening to a lot more podcasts, and getting some ideas. I feel like I want to podcast. I like the format, but I feel like I may be too rambly, and say "um" too much, but I can work on it. I'm also not sure where to start, or what to talk about. I was debating a sort of "this week in VEDA people" podcast, where I did a recap of stuff like…what the various channels were talking about, what people were up to, some of the big shared stories/posts on Twitter, stuff like that, but maybe that's too insider, and is there even a lot to talk about? Or maybe just talk about cool things this week, and let it be whatever I want it to be? I may need a cohost, though. But stuff like…this week, Linda and Suki are giving away the book Herbavoracious. This book is about _________, and earlier Linda went to an event where she sampled these things, and Tom, Kitty and Ian are debating a Doctor Who video acting contest, Totes Awesome is talking about Guilty Pleasures, MSTHK about Guest Stars, GFM has been posting a new Drabble a week these days, stuff like that.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?

8May/120

The Stranger’s Face in the Mirror

I had an odd moment this weekend, looking in the mirror.

I tend to spend a lot of weekends relaxing around the house. As a bit of an introvert, I like to be able to kind of hole up and not see folks, every now and then. I like quiet weekends where my time is my own and I can choose what to do (or not do). As such, I tend to lounge around in sweats and not shave. Hopefully that's not TMI for anyone; had one friend who was grossed out to hear me talking about shaving, but yes, folks. I shave my face. Daily.

On the Saturday, which was day 2 unshorn, I was in the bathroom and caught myself in the mirror, wearing a simple, relatively fitted tee, my hair a little mussed up, and with a couple days growth. And you know what?

I liked the way I looked.

This may sound like an odd thing to say, or that it's unworthy of a blog post. But it was such an odd revelation for me, and not something I experience every day. Most days I look in the mirror and go "meh" at the same old face, with it's puffy cheeks, weak chin and high forehead (or receding hairline, depending on if you ask me or my classmates in grade 6). Most days all I can see are those things I mentioned.

That day though, I saw a face I liked. A warm face, a smiling one. Handsome, I could even go to. Not perfect, no. But unique, and happy.

It was an odd moment to realize I liked my face, that I wouldn't trade it or make any real adjustments if I could.

Now, if I could just get to that point with my body, I'd be all set.

Have you ever had a moment like that? Or are you still waiting for it?

3May/124

Wine and Love: 4

So today I'm doing Wine and Love again, hosted by Suki! Here we talk about the things making us reach for the wine glass (or alcoholic beverage of choice) and the things we love this week!

Wine

  • Things continue to be busy at work. Nothing insane, but uncomfortably busy for me. I know I'll eventually catch up, and I'm glad I can leave things at work, for the most part. But I'd like things to settle a bit soon.
  • My stomach's been bugging me lately, and I think it's food related. I'm not sure if I'm developing some allergies or sensitivities, but I am starting to wonder. I'm really looking forward to being able to cook for myself too. People keep saying I'll miss meals at home, but my parents are both fans of very simple, starch heavy meals, so I'm really excited to be able to try some different things and improve my own cooking skills.
  • The weather's been unpleasant up til today. That's a small thing, but I find weather like that, with the rain and whatnot, makes me really want to just curl up and stay home.
  • I've felt a bit of social anxiety and strain lately. Nothing super crazy, but enough that I've felt really socially drained when I get home. I want to just not talk to people for a while, which I can't really do at home. Again, a small thing, but it irks me. Introvert me needs a recharge day.

Love

  • I'm getting that recharge day! Taking a vac day tomorrow just to relax, sleep, WoW a bit and just rest up a bit. I'm really looking forward to it.
  • I'm starting to feel more excited and inspired to blog, vlog and post more. I've been consuming more content and getting excited about producing my own. I've been listening to a lot of podcasts. I'm not sure how well I'd do on something like that myself. Anyone who's watched my vlogs may have noticed I tend to ramble and I'm not the best at getting to a point, but I like the idea of it. Not sure what I'd do a podcast about though.
  • Finances are getting in order! I've been disciplined and things are coming together nicely.
  • IT'S GFM'S BIRTHDAY! :D :D:D Happy birthday dear! Love your face! I've mentioned that on every other medium possible, I think, so the blog is the last one. She thinks she's turning old, but she's not. At all. You should go wish her a happy birthday.

What are you loving, and not loving this week?

1May/121

Content Consumption, Dream Jobs and Sleeping In

I've noticed lately I don't spend as much time consuming things as I once did.

I don't like that word, consume. It implies something very simple, like just eating. Here I mean that I don't read as many blogs, check twitter, watch YouTube or listen to podcasts as much as I used to. I read a bit of the paper, and try to keep up on blogs, but not nearly to the extent I once did. Even TV has largely taken a back seat; whereas I used to have shows for almost every night, now I only really watch a few, and rarely live as they air. What I mean is consuming things that enrich me. Watching good TV, reading good blogs, connecting with people on Twitter and YouTube. I've been doing a lot less of that lately, and I've decided I want to change that.

I've realized that I spend a decent amount of time reading WoW news and blogs. There is a Beta out, so there is a lot going on, but I worried a bit about it becoming my only interest. I do enjoy it, and I do play a fair bit, but the actual playtime is not something I'm really worried about. A lot of that is playing with friends, connecting with people and just hanging out. What worried me were the moments where I'd read all the news and just couldn't think what else to do on the internet. That was a scary moment, I don't mind telling you.

So I've been trying to make sure that almost every moment is used in some semi-productive way. Some of that is just saying that, instead of sitting around playing Solitaire, I'm watching an episode of a TV show, or listening to a podcast. I try to be sure if I'm walking for almost any distance I've got a podcast on. I've got a list of podcasts I'm listening to. I may see about setting up a "what I'm watching/reading/listening to" sidebar somewhere, in case folks are interested. I do also try to have more meditative moments, while walking sometimes, but when I'm jostling and speed walking for my train in the evenings, that's probably a good time to catch up on podcasts, and not so much to try and find inner peace. Maybe.

In short, I've been trying to get back in touch with my own interests. Most of these aren't anything new; tech, sci-fi, fantasy, politics and lately comedy. I find myself drawn to podcasts and interviews with comic actors, or actors who have some interest or experience in that sort of thing. Listened to some great interviews lately with Jon Hamm and Neil Patrick Harris.

The idea of this is getting to the point where I'm producing more of my own things, honing my own craft. Not just for the sake of it, but because I like writing, I like sharing what I've learned and what I've found, whatever that may be. I also am trying to find my own passion, my own niche. My failed interview got me thinking about what I really want to do, and I feel like through all this I can find a way to contribute that gets me excited to get up in the morning.

And, preferably, allows me to get up later in the morning. C'mon, what's the point of a dream job if you can't sleep in?